October 8th, 2021

Last night I played volleyball with my brewery co workers, which was a blast. Then as I drove home, I started crying... knowing I had to go home alone. They were light tears.

Then I got home, showered, and made dinner. A little relaxing feeling came over me. A.. you are okay and you are not alone... kind of feeling.

Then I started watching a movie and went to bed. This was the first night to breaking my older habit.. the old habit of going out and drinking.. of going to see a guy so I did not have to be alone. Even though being alone is not all bad, come to find out.

It's the old values I have tied to being alone that I need to fix.